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I read another book! It's been hard, settling into school and I've needed to take too much time to think about life, and haven't been able to get back into reading. Last night I binge read Moonrise   by S. Crossan, which was engaging enough to keep me reading it! It's told through an odd sort of verse, which is  pretty much written kind of               like                     this.  Our main character is a teen named Joe, who's brother is on Death Row, for a crime he possibly didn't actually commit. It kind of really makes you think about stuff. Also, I cried.  There's a classic hetero romance, which is super stereotypical but honestly I didn't really mind it that much? It was well written, at least.  Anyway, I have math homework to do, but yes, you should probably read it. Pretty short, pretty sad, pretty good!  An 8/10.

okayokayokay sO! Big Picture went to the UVM Ropes Course which was all good and fun and reminded me how much I hate being stuck on the ground. Jamie was one of our leaders, and when he said I looked familiar I told him that I was part of the group that rode his bike, and proceeded to sing The Ants Go Marching the entire  walk back. He remembered that. Also, I got my first grade! It's a C, but mostly because I put that 5x9= 47, and that 6x6=18. Maybe also because instead of actually reducing my fractions I just wrote "I don't feel like reducing these fractions, so go ahead and take points off.". I find it all hysterical and am perfectly happy with the result I got from how much effort I put in.  Friday, SBHS had a late start, which resulted in a few of us BP kids hanging out in a room for like, 2 hours. Not even joking. Emersyn helped me with my math homework, which was nice, and also I lay on the floor and talked about my problems. (You all know how much I lo...

I went to pride Saturday! It was alright, but overwhelming. I saw 4 people from school, and managed to avoid interaction with 3 of them! (I tried to find Sylvia and Ivan, but I failed.) I split up from my little group with Finn and his VCS friends to just wander freely, which felt good. Large social settings seem better, oddly enough, when I am alone and there's not pressure to move or exist at anyone's pace but my own. I ended up just doing laps around all the rainbows and excitement, which is totally weird and not a Thing Normal People Do, but I mean? Whatever? It felt good, so leave me alone. Also, I got to pet a very small (like, malkin sized) pig wearing a rainbow tutu, named Kevin. So, that's a big success right there!

Wow! I am enjoying my math class! All the other kids are fascinated by me. I think. They enjoy the bucket's presence more than the Big Picture kids do! I have talked to some. I get along with Dustin, for the most part. It's an interesting dynamic. The math is mostly pretty easy. I still don't know my multiplication facts. I have "aced" a test thing, and I'm getting my homework right pretty consistently, even though he does give too much homework. Being back in a class has reminded me of how competitive I am, and the only reason I am trying on anything is a combination of competitiveness and spite. But I like it! I would appreciate it if he gave my homework back with smiley face stickers, but this is high school so he doesn't give homework back at all. Overall, 7/10!

Here's a helpful color coded map to show you where my happiness lies, location wise: This floor plan of MMU shows the path through crowded hallways, and the better path that goes around the building and to the emergency exit where I can bang on the door until someone lets me in: And this version shows the locations where I should  be during study hall, and the one I've chosen to go to: This picture is of me being a Qualified High School Student: And this one perfectly sums up my first day, and my classmates first impressions: Here's a stock image representing how my math teacher and I are getting along: And finally, here's how us 9th graders are probably feeling right now. (I didn't consult Leo or Bella about this so maybe they are actually doing great I don't know):